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thinksyourabigballofawesome;;
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Tue May 5, 2009, 10:03 PM
its been almost a year now.
and i wish i could say i have changed.

i look different, have better friends, and more confidence.
but i still am balancing family and the show and try not to diappoint anyone. and i am still trying to get all the my grades up before the finish.

i have fallen in love, been broken, been abandoned, and relapsed way more than i would like to remember.

i laughed and became who i was.

i got close to people who mattered.

i grew in faith, in opinions, and three inches.

but somehow, after all that, i still feel like the same emily. the one that manipulated her mother and talked about evryone behind their back because she still wanted to loose three sizes. who didn't really have a problem with dying, and didn't know that was a problem. who wore too tight shirts and black and white nail polish. who broke the law on church retreats. who tried to be tough, but was more fragile than anyone imagined. who was terrified of getting food in her braces. who's legs were cut up and then everyone knew why. who did everything for everyone because she couldn't stand to be alone...

i am surronded by beauty, but i feel so blind.


i've been standing for 7 months now, and i still feel like the emily who was afraid of herself.

what has happened here?


i still break easily

  • Mood: Speechless

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emily here:

i lalalalove my people. you know who you are;;
i am terrified of the dark, horrible at spelling and geography, and paranoid when i am alone.
i am addcited to music. i sing and play some guitar. i compose a bit. not great, just determined.
don't be a bitch. life is more fun when people like you
i have the sense of humor of a 15 year old boy and an attention span half of that..
i get along better with guys. and people that are older than me.
i'll tell it straight: i like being obnoxious in public places with my friends (; get over it
i have my opinions, i know what i feel. ask me about them and you will too.

Devious Info

  • Interests: people.
  • Favourite band or musician: the bird and the bee, tegan & sara, dispatch, backseat goodbye, iron & wine, yellowcard, {et
  • Favourite genre of music: it's all good (:
  • Favourite artist: keith haring.
  • Favourite cartoon character: teenage muntant ninja turtles (GONINJAGONINJAGOO)

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Comments


I wonder if you know how beautiful'n'sexy you are........... I adore you.....:)

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”The ability to speak doesn't make you intelligent!”
erm; thanks!
(:

xx

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"i like your christ. i do not like your christians. your christians are so unlike your christ."
-mohandas gandhi
thanks for the fave! :heart:

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I've got a secret please don't repeat it, i took the chemicals we took to make our chemistry, and i remixed it, it didn't fix shit, all it did was make our memories a blur to me.

This emergency brought you to me.
no problemo boo

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"i like your christ. i do not like your christians. your christians are so unlike your christ."
-mohandas gandhi
Hey sexy baby!
Thanks for the fav!

XOXO

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As for the future of the couples sex life, John said he is full of hope. "I'd like to maybe try actually touching Linda's vagina with my hand at some point," he said. "Then again, I don't want to rush things. Also, I've heard that the vagina kind of smell
you are just amazing
no problem sweetheart;;

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"i like your christ. i do not like your christians. your christians are so unlike your christ."
-mohandas gandhi
if ur not gonna talk 2 me then don't talk 2 me or about me 2 any1 and if ur gonna believe wut some1 else says over my word and promise then we weren't friends anyway cuz i trusted u with my heart and everything i said was true ur believing the wrong person about something that did happen slit my wrists and crucify me everything i said was 4 true

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i'm black
a girl
and emo
how much more could anyone hate me?

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